Today I realised that you've got to get the things done that need doing before you can start day dreaming and fantasing about where you want to be and what you would prefer to be doing.
I didn't just realise this myself in a flash of inspiration.I happened to read my stars (normally I don't bother at all with them as who wants to be thinking, feeling and doing the exact same thing as a billion or so other Gemini's?) anyway, the stars said that I need to stop fantasing about my future and basically get back with the real world and sort out issues now before I end up in court/debt.
Which I wouldn't have taken any notice of if I hadn't had 3 letters in the last 2 days about money I owe. I must admit, I have been burying my head in the sand over the boring everyday stuff like this. I have been in la la world for the last month, since I found out what was wrong with me, I've felt excellent, huge weight off the shoulders which then has got my dreamer side spiralling out of control. It's ok to do 50% of that, but at the moment it really is 100%.
When I get home I'm going to ring everyone on my list (companies I owe) and just tell them I don't have the money....at least I'll know how much shit I'm in and can take it from there.
I'm then going to sit down and study for a few hours and then I will chill.
I know I'm bad (or good anyway depending how you look at it) with procrastinating but it just seems to have gotten worse of late. Well, the good thing is that I know now and will deal with it. Arrghhh. Hate dealing with shit like this.
I'll no doubt feel a whole lot better having done it though, I know that. It's just the actual doing it.
